I was setting in my room ... my Bloody Dark room ... even it was white , I just couldn't see the white part ... maybe because White stands for truth , honest or purity and my BAD Day was not .... I askesd my self , as I typed the last word of my unended work's code , I asked myself a question that may not be strange for most of us , its not the first time i ask myself this question , I did before but with no answeres ... I think of this question every time I broke down ... every time I pissed off ... every time I feel frustrated ..... and when I thought of this question I couldn't find any answer for it , I tried to but I just couldn't ...
This question was "WHY ?"
Why peopls' talk full of Deseption ?
Why Do I have to accept this Deseption ?
Why there is no one to trust ?
Why the world is falling apart ?
Why is life unfair ?
Why is life full of emptiness ?
Why ...? Why ...? Why ...?
I picked My Black mug ... drank my black coffee ... Looked at the time turned to 3:00 am ... took a deep breath ... checked my black window ... turned my face back to the screen ... and Typed ...
"Why Should I Cry While Angels Out There Deserve to Die ?"
Why was My life so Black ?
Why I am Alive ?
Then I heard someone said "Why do you ask your self why ?" ... I panicked ... looked to my right , My brother was still sleeping !! ... I looked to the left , but I didn't see any one ... the room was empty ... I said " Who is this ?" , But no one answer me ... It took a while before I realize that it was me talking to my self ... NO I am not crazy , It was my unconsciousness ... I start to think of that question !
My life is not black ... I only see it black ... I picked my black mug again , it still black ... drank the coffee that still black ... but something changed .. the Bloody dark room , was not black any more ... I checked the light , NO it was off ...
I realized that I am the one who decide what color to see ... that I can jump out from the shade into the light ... that I was sleepy , I open my mouth wide and yawned ... then I put my head on my pillow , and fall in sleep ... tring to seek the white in my life ...
By : Mr.H ---> Me :)
PS : Don't even bother urselfs to check my spellin .. just let it go :P
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